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[ascintilla]

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Comments

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...and here I thought you didn't like them after the Not Bread list.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

The list is of things that are and are not good when paired with hot chocolate.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...ice cream and hot chocolate would be a challenge.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

As I discovered soon after commencing the experiment.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

And the plants?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

... They are aesthetically pleasing.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

When was the last time you watered them?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

Shortly before the amnesia game.

[ buries her face in one of the cats she's cuddling. ]

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

That's a long time not to.

You seem sad.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

… Yes, well.

[ muffled. by cats. ]

I did not expect you of all people to say that to me. I suppose that I deserved it.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

... [Raises an eyebrow.] That you'll isolate yourself if you go for revenge?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

What is the point of my existence …

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...

What are you taking that to mean?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

… I had begun to think that I exist, and therefore I have reason to be.

"You don't care if you hurt people. If you kidnap people. If you get people possessed."

Why is it only wrong when humans are those being used? Why are the needs, the wants, of AI, consider lesser? Why must I have a point to justify my existence? Why are we created simply to be used—why is that considered acceptable, and why is it acceptable for our broken pieces to be swept comfortably out of sight, out of hearing, out of mind?

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...there's a few things I want to say to that, but first....

What happens to a human if they don't eat? Sleep? Drink?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

They die. I am aware of the analogy.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

An AI doesn't need to do those.

But an AI needs to learn. An AI stuck in the same thoughts, it doesn't go well. It either leads to self destruction or they shut down.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

In your world, yes. I am capable of sustaining myself.

[ it's just ]











[ lonely ]

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

Are you sure?

Because you said something different when we met.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

…


If I were not an Echo.

[ Caught her. He always seems to. ]

And is that not the crux of it? Not only am I an AI—I am also an Echo. [ ... ] I think I would like you to leave now.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

If you weren't an Echo, you'd still be alone.

[He leans forward on the desk.]

In this big ship, with a quiet woman, and fragments that need so much more to heal.

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

[ The avatar—Iota doesn't look up. Her face is full of cat fluff and that is how it's going to stay. ]

[ Virtual cat fluff. Because virtual cats. Because virtual person. ]

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...did you see, that I had a panic attack in the cells?

Re: DAY 220

[ascintilla]

…

[ There's something … a tiny hint of what used to be, in Iota's voice. ]

Yes.

Re: DAY 220

[purrtylittlewires]

...

It's...incredibly easy for me to survive. To keep breathing, my heart beating. But there are days, where I can forget who I am. The more alone I am, the more it happens.

It terrifies me, more than anything, the thought of being alone. Because even if my heart's beating, sooner or later, I'm not going to be really alive anymore.

Because survival, and being alive aren't the same thing. And for some people....other people are a necessity. And I think you're one of those people, Iota.